- oh wow
- July 3rd, 2010
it's been a while since ive posted in here. so much has changed.
first and foremost, i need to thank fate/existence for all the great things it has brought me.
i am really thankful and happy in whatever paths were created to bring me to this point. i wouldn't change a thing.
everything had to happen just the way it did for me to meet smitty.
everything had to happen just the way it did for me to survive my open heart surgery.
i saw it all unconscious. death/another existence is a vast void of absolution. there are no human/social words to describe it.
it's knowing you are in a room without lights, unable to see, wondering where the walls are. it's a extremely huge black paper and existence itself is just a pinprick on it.
it's complete absolute and void, together.
the petty worries of this entire planet, as a single creature, is almost null in comparison to all of existence, nevermind the petty worries of man itself. status que, clothing, technologies are nothing compared to the worries of famine, desolation, nations unraveling and even so, that means nothing in the grand scheme of things. we as a conscious existence in total, are hardly even on the map yet. we are not even recognized to any others/anything else 'out there'.
in any case, fate in this existence has made me one happy little bug.
unafraid of death. accepting of the rapids.
the universe provides.